Don't forget your not alone if you suffer from any of these.....
"Don't give up! I believe in you all. A persons a person no matter how small!!! Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind!" & "Adults are just obsolete children and the hell with them!" Dr. Seuss
I have depression & anxiety. My parents started noticing at about age 7. To this day I have only found a few meds that help. But don't give up.....you will eventually find something that helps. Its not a bad thing, you just have to deal w/ it like anyone else does w/ any bumps in the road......If you need to talk let me know, I'm happy to be there!
From my heart.....
I am lucky to have had just one....
To me....
My strength it does most time goes. To be me you do not know.
I am not weak.....for all I seek, I provide what that I know..
I don't want to be palbable.,nor weak but strong. I will stick up & fight for what goes wrong.
I am so tender & feel weak at times. But you can't get through life like that
sometimes.
I show my strength by trying to fight back. Sometimes I feel these things I lack.
Keep fighting girl... you will not fail. Karma is on my side & God will help me prevail. I've been though things no one should ever dream. I don't know how how but I come out swinging. I will not give up after all I've been though.
I will fight now to protect whatever I've been though. Bad dreams, sad thoughts, they will all make you remember.
I am stronger than I can remember Forgiveness is there, It has always been there. To love & forgive is my weakness
To believe I always seek this. The things that hurt, the things I endured should not be easy for anyone, but its what you have to take & remember & don't forget, there is always hope. Stand up for yourself, don't compromise, but remember.
Those people that hurt you will might in Gods eyes forgive..I know I am depressed, sometime distressed, But in good times & bad I, I try not to be sad. For all that I've lived though & managed to live, I still find myself always manage to forgive.
I am not weak.....for all I seek, I provide what that I know..
I don't want to be palbable.,nor weak but strong. I will stick up & fight for what goes wrong.
I am so tender & feel weak at times. But you can't get through life like that
sometimes.
I show my strength by trying to fight back. Sometimes I feel these things I lack.
Keep fighting girl... you will not fail. Karma is on my side & God will help me prevail. I've been though things no one should ever dream. I don't know how how but I come out swinging. I will not give up after all I've been though.
I will fight now to protect whatever I've been though. Bad dreams, sad thoughts, they will all make you remember.
I am stronger than I can remember Forgiveness is there, It has always been there. To love & forgive is my weakness
To believe I always seek this. The things that hurt, the things I endured should not be easy for anyone, but its what you have to take & remember & don't forget, there is always hope. Stand up for yourself, don't compromise, but remember.
Those people that hurt you will might in Gods eyes forgive..I know I am depressed, sometime distressed, But in good times & bad I, I try not to be sad. For all that I've lived though & managed to live, I still find myself always manage to forgive.
Me.....
I don't ask to much from life itself, just to sing ,dance & feel alive. To see new things are in my dreams....is that too much to ask just to survive?
I have a voice so clear & loud in my head that it still exists.
Why is doing something fundamentally trivial, better than living a responsible life? You just heed to my ado.
To me its been the way I understand happiness, on the whim....new things to begin, its how I feel alive.
It takes time to forget the things we want let, but somehow I succeed.
I have to remember things can always be worse, I am lucky to have what I do. You don't need to understand me, You just need to let it happen & make do.
Maybe you will love me forever, maybe you will not. Its then put on you to decide what to do, In your conscious you will know. If you really have known me is to always love me....in your dreams & thoughts it will show. It is hard to remember one person, people tend to easily forget. But I chose to live life big so I will never forget.
I learned so much that it hit so hard, not just in my mind ,but in my heart. I fought off thoughts no one should have to regard. Nor should I have had to ever endure. So far I've managed to keep myself true, even when I was sure the end was so near. I Love LeeAnn......
I have a voice so clear & loud in my head that it still exists.
Why is doing something fundamentally trivial, better than living a responsible life? You just heed to my ado.
To me its been the way I understand happiness, on the whim....new things to begin, its how I feel alive.
It takes time to forget the things we want let, but somehow I succeed.
I have to remember things can always be worse, I am lucky to have what I do. You don't need to understand me, You just need to let it happen & make do.
Maybe you will love me forever, maybe you will not. Its then put on you to decide what to do, In your conscious you will know. If you really have known me is to always love me....in your dreams & thoughts it will show. It is hard to remember one person, people tend to easily forget. But I chose to live life big so I will never forget.
I learned so much that it hit so hard, not just in my mind ,but in my heart. I fought off thoughts no one should have to regard. Nor should I have had to ever endure. So far I've managed to keep myself true, even when I was sure the end was so near. I Love LeeAnn......
Trust....
I can't trust you. No matter near or far. Should I think that matters? I tried to understand you left my life in tatters.
At least that was my goal. To be there for you, through & through. My secrets I told you, my faith in you behold me.
My faith in you I let you have. But you left wounds behind that I had to salve.
When I remember, I try to forget. Not think of our life & the things to regret. To live, to forgive is in itself a huge deed, considering all the pain you wrought, Cheating, Lying, strip clubs, porn.....some things are never forgot.
To live in your shadow not being beside, hurts beyond words that I can't describe. I wish to start life over, not knowing you , and me as a child.
At least that was my goal. To be there for you, through & through. My secrets I told you, my faith in you behold me.
My faith in you I let you have. But you left wounds behind that I had to salve.
When I remember, I try to forget. Not think of our life & the things to regret. To live, to forgive is in itself a huge deed, considering all the pain you wrought, Cheating, Lying, strip clubs, porn.....some things are never forgot.
To live in your shadow not being beside, hurts beyond words that I can't describe. I wish to start life over, not knowing you , and me as a child.
Spent?
I never thought I'd be here, but still I do exist, years to think it over and still I am amiss.
I don't know how it happened or how it even went,
I feel as though my life at times has somehow all been spent.
I can't “hit rewind” , the seeds of time, there’s nowhere else to go. If the end is close, for all I hope, is you'll be the ones to know.
Yet still I’m satisfied, I've explored so far & wide.
Exceeding life’s speed limit, Is there strength yet to commit?
The Abyss
I am amiss, we're in an In abyss. I can't find one way out, I’ve looked from corner to corner, Please help me turnabout.
Things like these I hear take time, but time gives you away. If some solution came to us , do you think that I would stay?
What it is that I’m after, I don't know if tiss or nor. Love is not a competition, & you learn not to keep score.
I felt I'd find you from the start.. We tried so hard to keep love smart.
But learning takes all your thoughts throughout, we give our hearts with hope about.
But keep each other under wing, & hope & keep things true. Expect some doubt., but please come about.
Your heart came to me & for mine likewise for you.....
Things like these I hear take time, but time gives you away. If some solution came to us , do you think that I would stay?
What it is that I’m after, I don't know if tiss or nor. Love is not a competition, & you learn not to keep score.
I felt I'd find you from the start.. We tried so hard to keep love smart.
But learning takes all your thoughts throughout, we give our hearts with hope about.
But keep each other under wing, & hope & keep things true. Expect some doubt., but please come about.
Your heart came to me & for mine likewise for you.....
We Live
We smoked, we drank, we left reality yes its true....
Life’s decisions, depend on me, can I make it through?
Life has been most interesting & cool....but I wish at times I was not such a fool.
I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.
For those I meet I trust & prey. I forgive the ones that hurt me & those who might desert me.
So why at times, do we wish to die, or curl up with tears & cry?
We live, we love, we play, we grow, we dance, we laugh, we sow.
Lets hope to keep loving & learning & will have something great to show.
The Drive
Our van we traveled & hung out in all over the lower 48....
Had some clues of what I loved in my life. But then, I learned to drive. The feeling was so awesome, it made me feel alive.
It was like I knew just what to do, no matter what I ran. I'm blessed to have "The Instinct" to do those things I can.
I’d drive for miles & hardly stop. I won't forget being in my 1st shop.
Ignoring all the limits, w/ my foot down to the floor, I imagine that it must be akin to a bird high when it soars.
I felt myself omnipotent, and threw aside my fear. The freedom of the highway will always bring a tear.
It was like I knew just what to do, no matter what I ran. I'm blessed to have "The Instinct" to do those things I can.
I’d drive for miles & hardly stop. I won't forget being in my 1st shop.
Ignoring all the limits, w/ my foot down to the floor, I imagine that it must be akin to a bird high when it soars.
I felt myself omnipotent, and threw aside my fear. The freedom of the highway will always bring a tear.
My Love for You
I was what you wanted since I can't recall, & you loved me anyway, if you knew how much it meant to me, some of the pain would drift away.
I'm not sure how this all happened, but still it all went wrong. I know we’ll make it through, for both of us are strong.
There was too much toil in dreamland, and so much foil to take. How do others make it work without trying to act fake?
If I had a wish to dream once over, I would pledge my love my man.
And this time make it all so right & feel that happiness again.
We Tried
We tried our best, we don't know how, too make the pain subside.
We messed our minds enough, & from that we cannot hide.
We loved each other more than ever, but our anger got in the way,
We were so stunned & sad & broken, that we had too much to say.
We feel we don't get far, with versing, we should prey.... give each other the love we deserve, not let it get away.
Our only hope is keep going on & on & believe & persevere....
We are lucky that we had love once, & blessed that we are here.
The two of us we both know, what happened & went wrong, sometimes it will reflect itself in a favorite song.
We both together knew, we could have come to equal terms, there was too much conflict in our ideal dreams & both of us will learn.....
Illusion of romance
You can't use one +one = two. For most the time math does not do. For hopes sake two will become one. All that does is make you subdue. To subdue to love makes everyone human & trusting. For we all long for love everlasting.
A heart can only take it so far, before it ends up numb. Obsolete, uncaring And begging our Lord to give you more. Falling for the 1st will always be best & worst. You feel like your on a cloud. You wanna jump & yell aloud.
You forget your fears because you've not experienced tears. Its the best feeling in the world. The stars shine brighter, The sun shines lighter. Your feet don't touch the floor. Dancing , touching, & kissing, will leave you wanting more.
Your mind consumed, no where else but to bloom, like a new flower on the vine. Visions or your life together, and nothing but time.
Like waves are crashing, you can't stop nature, it gives you much less time. A gift of love is precious, and will hopefully leave you sublime. You will think about or ponder this dream. The 1st will always be with you. So hard to imagine whats to predict. You trust, you love, no worries eradict. If only love was so perfect, we would all be in their arms forever with no worries , or regrets forever. Only romance.
A heart can only take it so far, before it ends up numb. Obsolete, uncaring And begging our Lord to give you more. Falling for the 1st will always be best & worst. You feel like your on a cloud. You wanna jump & yell aloud.
You forget your fears because you've not experienced tears. Its the best feeling in the world. The stars shine brighter, The sun shines lighter. Your feet don't touch the floor. Dancing , touching, & kissing, will leave you wanting more.
Your mind consumed, no where else but to bloom, like a new flower on the vine. Visions or your life together, and nothing but time.
Like waves are crashing, you can't stop nature, it gives you much less time. A gift of love is precious, and will hopefully leave you sublime. You will think about or ponder this dream. The 1st will always be with you. So hard to imagine whats to predict. You trust, you love, no worries eradict. If only love was so perfect, we would all be in their arms forever with no worries , or regrets forever. Only romance.
My Mothers Poem Called "Time" XOXO
Mom loves watching us open her Christmas gifts....
It’s Time
The time for giving, the time for living
The art of sharing and the art of giving.
The time intended for giving birth
To thoughts of love and gifts of worth.
It’s the time of thanks for lives of wealth
And strength of bodies blessed with health.
The time for wildly racing, voices laughing,
Down slopes of snow on boards awafting.
It’s the time to envision some months ahead
To views of rock in awesome shades of red.
To sailing canyons on waters clear and blue
With days most warm and clouds most few.
This is the time for spirits to soar
With love and caring for those most poor.
For those whose lives are most in need
We are blessed another’s future we can seed.
Let us reflect over gifts aplenty, remembering gladly,
That in sharing our bountiful fortune, not sadly,
But with caring in our hearts and knowledge that in the giving
The best of gifts was helping make another’s life worth living.
The time for giving, the time for living
The art of sharing and the art of giving.
The time intended for giving birth
To thoughts of love and gifts of worth.
It’s the time of thanks for lives of wealth
And strength of bodies blessed with health.
The time for wildly racing, voices laughing,
Down slopes of snow on boards awafting.
It’s the time to envision some months ahead
To views of rock in awesome shades of red.
To sailing canyons on waters clear and blue
With days most warm and clouds most few.
This is the time for spirits to soar
With love and caring for those most poor.
For those whose lives are most in need
We are blessed another’s future we can seed.
Let us reflect over gifts aplenty, remembering gladly,
That in sharing our bountiful fortune, not sadly,
But with caring in our hearts and knowledge that in the giving
The best of gifts was helping make another’s life worth living.